I've always struggled with my body image. I grew up in a house where I was constantly told how heavy I was. I blame my mother, she blames her father. My grandfather bought my grandmother a new car when she lost 50 lbs. That's just a little back story on how important weight/size was in the family growing up.
My senior year I had slimmed down a bit, yet I still thought I was too big (and I was larger than most of my friends in the "in-crowd"). I wish I knew how small I was and felt better about myself then.
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| My senior year (2004) with my sister |
My husband is much smaller than I am. While dating, my grandmother asked me many times "He's okay that you're so much bigger than he is"? and similar questions. This isn't because my she's against "fat" people, but because my grandfather has always treated her as though it's awful that she's "fat". When I answered "he's happy with me just as I am" she would say how nice that is and good for me for finding someone that's okay with my size.
We're going to skip ahead to more recent times. I gained quite a bit of weight- about 60 lbs after high school. I tried weight watchers and that worked well when I stuck with it. Mostly, I think I just need to exercise. I went from playing 2 sports in high school to being a bump on a log basically.
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| My sister and I in 2011 |
